The Only Judge - Cade Wood
As much as I just "love" reading, recently I have just been ready to finish this book. A quote from our famous honor's president, "I understand the need of confession, but I'm tired of Augustine. He can stop confessing now." However, there are some parts of this book that I read that just poke out at me. In book X chapter 7 the smallest thing stuck out to me. "You, Lord, are my judge... But you, Lord, know everything about the human person; for you made humanity." I may take this a little out of context too, but oh well.
I personally am a very blunt person, anyone who knows me can attest to that. At the same time though, I'm a people pleaser. I'm not a fan of conflict, and mostly try to avoid it at all costs. I do not think many of you in honors know my story, but along the way I became very self conscious and depressed and lost the will to live. During this time God used some very close friend of mine to show me that it dint matter what I 'felt' like. What i mean by that is this, my insecurities and my self-consciousness came from how i thought other people viewed me. Ya see, the reason I was insecure was because my best friend killed himself and another very close fried of mine died within a very short time span. I stopped eating and lost a bunch of weight, resulting in mega skinny Cade (I'm already a twig, so i was basically an alien). God used my friends to show me that it didn't matter what people thought about me, because they were/are going to die just like me. We all will go into the dirt at some point, unless Jesus comes back before then. I realized God was the only one in all of creation that I needed to focus on. Why would I waste my time trying to impress humans going into the dirt just like me?
I commented on Gray's and AnnaKate's
I personally am a very blunt person, anyone who knows me can attest to that. At the same time though, I'm a people pleaser. I'm not a fan of conflict, and mostly try to avoid it at all costs. I do not think many of you in honors know my story, but along the way I became very self conscious and depressed and lost the will to live. During this time God used some very close friend of mine to show me that it dint matter what I 'felt' like. What i mean by that is this, my insecurities and my self-consciousness came from how i thought other people viewed me. Ya see, the reason I was insecure was because my best friend killed himself and another very close fried of mine died within a very short time span. I stopped eating and lost a bunch of weight, resulting in mega skinny Cade (I'm already a twig, so i was basically an alien). God used my friends to show me that it didn't matter what people thought about me, because they were/are going to die just like me. We all will go into the dirt at some point, unless Jesus comes back before then. I realized God was the only one in all of creation that I needed to focus on. Why would I waste my time trying to impress humans going into the dirt just like me?
I commented on Gray's and AnnaKate's
Wow, Cade, this blog is really deep, thank you. I'm so glad that you were able to find something in the text that you could relate to in your past. I am very proud of you and I agree with your point too. You are right in fact too that we should not focus on human desires but instead on ourselves and our relationship with God. Human desire is a tricky thing, especially when it concerns wanting acceptance.
ReplyDeleteDude this is awesome. Firstly, thanks for letting me crash at your place! Second, This is such a good testimony for anyone struggling with self worth or a lack of confidence. We are all equal, in God’a eyes, and in reality. No one is above us and no one knows us like our Heavenly Father.
ReplyDeleteWe can choose to wallow in the words of man; or, we can be excited about what Dad has for us and seek after Him and trust Him to be our sustainer. He knows us more than anyone ever will, and He wants what’s best for us. So we should just forget all the noise and seek Him.